what is life?

Looking back those days, I almost have everything I've ever wanted. However, somewhere in my mind, there's a confusion...

I'm not satisfied with the present, but not sure about the future. That's why I'm stuck, I'm afraid to take another step...

I don't know what to do with my life!

Just found out today that my Mom had spinal degeneration. There's a possibility that left part would be disable...

Haven't come home for a month and didn't intend to do so until Dad reminded.

Am I too carefree? too selfish?

I used to think that I could leave everything behind, run away from family. I used to be too positive about my life, I didn't think that diseases, accidents would happen to me and people around... till they come...