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Things made me depressed and confused during a long time have just become crystal clear than ever.

Our friendship is supposed to end months (or years?) ago, but you keep popping up in my dreams sometimes. Everything is so clear like it just happened yesterday.

I realize apologies weren't enough as I myself didn't know... and still don't know what was going on.

No matter how hard I tried to hold on, you still walked away, left me clueless. So I quit.

At least I used to try my best... [sigh]

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"Based on a psychological study, a crush only lasts for a maximum of 4 months. If it exceeds, you are already in love"

It's 4 months and a half... and I'm still in love!

Triple happiness

Things go so smoothly these days
Great experience in US
New place
Have the best boss in the world
Graduation ceremony next Thursday
...
and love is in the air

Don't know why everything seems to be too perfect for me. Not sure what will come, but I will enjoy the present first!

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"I don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night

How pictures never change but the people in them do.

How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend.

How forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back.

How you can let go of something you once said you couldn't live without.

How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare.

How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.

How people can erase you from their lives just because it's easier than working things out.

How at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger.

You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look.

This person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, is now walking past you, seeing right through you."

Yeah. I made it! Don't think too hard, don't worry too much, already booked 3 days in Vegas. Alone... But really excited!

I'm so proud of my spontaneity :))

If I could turn back... to the time... when we haven't know each other yet... just strangers...

for you,

I started to recognize that I had a strange feeling for you since the first time you said you liked me. Day after day, besides my boss, you became such an essential part of my day that everything happened to me, I just wanted to come home and let you know right away. That's when I knew that I also liked you.

And then, you kept telling me that you loved me. At first I thought it was a joke. One, two, three times and many times after that... I knew it wasn't a joke anymore (maybe I'm wrong). But I wasn't scared as I used to do with other people in the past. I took it easy. I like the fact that I have someone to wait for, to talk to and to share with. And I’m sure that is love.

You don't want me to compare you with the other one. You know what; the more I compare, the more I fall for you, treasure you and love you. You have everything I've been expecting in a friend and a lover. This is the first time ever that my heart and my head speak the same language.

I know I love you from the moment I open my eyes in the morning till the night time.

here it comes

the most wonderful thing is loving someone and realizing that they also love you the same way back.

finally...

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I still cannot believe that I'm in here, a place I dreamed about every night in the past 6 months. Only in 4 days, everything happened so fast that I couldn't believe that I was on the plane, then transited at Incheon airport and arrived in Washington DC. Everything is messed up, time, habits, social life...

Don't know what I'm thinking now.

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I might forget, but not yet forgive!

there you are!

After 21 years living on earth, finally I know what I want, for the first time...

That's it, which sleep with every night, and wake up with a crystal clear thought of where I want to be in 10 years time, not just a hasty decision to leave it sunk into oblivion anymore!

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Money can't buy love, yet it can buy happiness!

I have no idea of living these days. I forget the time, forget people arround, pay no attention to the surroundings.

And sometimes I get conscious, stream of thought starts to pop up in my mind, then I don't know if they're from my own or from someone before .

What would happen if mind and soul did not belong together?

it's the matter of feeling

There're some people who used to be very closed to you, and then suddenly you realize that you don't feel like to be with them anymore. Everything is surrounded in a tense atmosphere.

It's not their fault. You don't know why, a feeling of insecurity, awkwardness, and even an icy shiver runs along your spine when hearing their name.

It's just like that... and you decide to let go of a relationship, leave them clueless. (or that's also what they're feeling for you?)

[for MT]

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"When my 60 seconds came around, I realized I had everything I've ever wanted... but nothing I really needed... and I think what I need is here!"

- Leap Year (2010) -

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Last night, I knew what really happened those days.

and the question is should I keep digging the past to see black or white

or... I just let go of everything because the past has passed, nothing could change ?

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"We all wear masks, illusions of what we want the world to see. But when we hide our true selves from those we love... what price do we pay for that deception?"

- The Outer Limits (1995) -

Happy Birthday

Suddenly want to spend this day by myself..

just don't want to make it special because of someone else

just don't want things to turn out a memory related to anyone else.

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- why all of the sudden party doesn't sound fun any more?

- same here...

- are we growing older?

- getting old doesn't mean getting bored and apathetic with everything.

Checklist 2011

• Graduate ceremony
• Travel abroad
• Make some changes in work
• Enroll a short-term course
• Back to exercise!

Welcome 2011!

I wanna make this year special, unforgettable, but never think about the way I did on New Year 's Eve last night.

Anyway, I did it! Yes, I did it :))