stuck...

i thought i could change... but no!

months ago, i started to live freely with carefree thoughts which made me become cooler in people's mind. and i did enjoy every moment of life.. i planned for the future, relinquished responsibilities, cared more for myself as well as looking for a free life after graduating. well, i would travel to another land and then doing whatever i like, experience every aspect of life and live out of parents' view coz i know for a thousand years, they would never allow that wild life...

Thinking about that was really great and it became my lifebuoy those days.

But at this moment, i find something wrong. i don't know whether it's because i'm easy to get bored or because that's not what i actually want. once again, i'm stuck

i know, lying myself is the reason of solitude... yet, i can't live my life. i can't help. sorry!