since when i start to indulge myself too much?eating at luxury places, shopping at big plazas and drinking at expensive cafe... and spend all my 4-year-saving
tend to be alone more often, even karaoke for 3 hours long... alone... i always hate doing things alone... but there's no choice... as i find out that nobody in this world comprehends me or they can't walk together with me in the path of life
usually wake up in the middle of the night... cover by the extreme lonesomeness... pick up the phone and search for a name, just a name... but hopeless!
sometimes your name appears in my mind... not sometimes, actually all the time... and then i realize that we are drifting too far away from each other... the more i feel lonely, the more i miss you and awake that's impossible to reach out to you... such a vicious circle...so what is the point of thinking and missing?
too many times i've told myself to change...
but how?
[overall, there're 2 kinds of people in this world: the ones who really live and the others, who are merely existing, just sit around and contemplate the first type...]
is it obvious to see where i am?
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